You can always start with “once upon a time”…

I come up with tricks to make calculations in particle physics easier. That’s my one-sentence story, or my most common one. If I want to tell a longer story, I have more options.

Here’s one longer story:

I want to figure out what Nature is telling us. I want to take all the data we have access to that has anything to say about fundamental physics, every collider and gravitational wave telescope and ripple in the overall structure of the universe, and squeeze it as hard as I can until something comes out. I want to make sure we understand the implications of our current best theories as well as we can, to as high precision as we can, because I want to know whether they match what we see.

To do that, I am starting with a type of calculation I know how to do best. That’s both because I can make progress with it, and because it will be important for making these inferences, for testing our theories. I am following a hint in a theory that definitely does not describe the real world, one that is both simpler to work with and surprisingly complex, one that has a good track record, both for me and others, for advancing these calculations. And at the end of the day, I’ll make our ability to infer things from Nature that much better.

Here’s another:

Physicists, unknowing, proposed a kind of toy model, one often simpler to work with but not necessarily simpler to describe. Using this model, they pursued increasingly elaborate calculations, and time and time again, those calculations surprised them. The results were not random, not a disorderly mess of everything they could plausibly have gotten. Instead, they had structure, symmetries and patterns and mathematical properties that the physicists can’t seem to explain. If we can explain them, we will advance our knowledge of models and theories and ideas, geometry and combinatorics, learning more about the unexpected consequences of the rules we invent.

We can also help the physicists advance physics, of course. That’s a happy accident, but one that justifies the money and time, showing the rest of the world that understanding consequences of rules is still important and valuable.

These seem like very different stories, but they’re not so different. They change in order, physics then math or math then physics, backwards and forwards. By doing that, they change in emphasis, in where they’re putting glory and how they’re catching your attention. But at the end of the day, I’m investigating mathematical mysteries, and I’m advancing our ability to do precision physics.

(Maybe you think that my motivation must lie with one of these stories and not the other. One is “what I’m really doing”, the other is a lie made up for grant agencies.
Increasingly, I don’t think people work like that. If we are at heart stories, we’re retroactive stories. Our motivation day to day doesn’t follow one neat story or another. We move forward, we maybe have deep values underneath, but our accounts of “why” can and will change depending on context. We’re human, and thus as messy as that word should entail.)

I can tell more than two stories if I want to. I won’t here. But this is largely what I’m working on at the moment. In applying for grants, I need to get the details right, to sprinkle the right references and the right scientific arguments, but the broad story is equally important. I keep shuffling that story, a pile of not-quite-literal index cards, finding different orders and seeing how they sound, imagining my audience and thinking about what stories would work for them.